9/11 on 9/12

i'm ashamed to admit this, but yesterday i did everything i could NOT to remember the events of 9/11. over the wkend i tried watching a couple of specials on it, and i found myself getting all upset and emotional again, so i just stopped. i didn't turn on the tv, i didn't visit my usual news web sites, and i didn't listen to the radio. but today, for some reason, i can't seem to stop from thinking about that day. i remember being woken up by a friend that morning..."hannah, get up. turn on your tv." it was a command, and the tone was urgent. i immediately sensed something was very very wrong. little did i know. it's hard to believe five years has passed since then.