i'm currently sick. actually, i've been sick for a week now. a WHOLE week. i developed a fever yesterday too, so i had to leave work early.
a couple weeks ago, i blogged about something that had been brewing in my mind & heart for some time now, but i deleted it coz...well...i dunno exactly why. but it keeps coming up and i'm afraid i'm getting emotional about it...scared, unsure, etc. it's one of those "is it me or is it God nudging me?" things. i've never been good at figuring out which. i'm the doofus type of christian...i do things and then after the fact i pray things like, "oh i'm sorry God! i totally screwed up! please fix this for me!" and sometimes He does, coz He's so gracious. but other times He lets me deal with the consequences of my actions [though i know i've never been alone in dealing with them]. it's hard for me to discern His will. i think it's because i'm supremely selfish and have trust issues. but man, i could use some guidance now.
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