the wall

how you entered i'll never know
i was determined to build my fortress
and forged ahead
i had a plan you see
a vision

somewhere along the line i lost myself in the building
in the creating
in the cementing
of a wall so high not a soul could fly by
without endangering themselves

and you like a pure-hearted child
came quietly up to my great wall
and playfully began to chip away
oblivious to the enormity of the task in front of you
ignoring the danger i threatened you with

i play to the tune of peoples' expectations
as i aim to please
as i've been taught to
being the good obedient child
careful not to rock the boat

as i grew taller i noticed big people were smaller
and i began to wonder why i thought
they were so towering before
how it was that they had loomed so large
their shadows hovering over my heart's door

hypocrisies revealed, pride sowed then reaped
the faithful turned faithless
blaming everyone but themselves
i watched in fascinated horror
at the world around me unraveling

everything is always everyone else's fault
how wonderfully simple to concede to that
too bad it's untrue
as i learned and turned
to face that realization

tears flowed freely
and oh how freeing
to finally be honest with myself
to finally let you undo what i've done
in the name of self-preservation

and the wall comes tumbling down
one by one
solitary brick after solitary brick
and sometimes they fall slower
and some days not a single one drops

but by and by
as the years go by
the wall shakes and falls
and reveals the raw trembling heart
aglow in your light