last day

today is my last day here at the u.s. center for world mission.
i am sad.

i think i'm more sad to leave the center than when i left yellowpages. when i left yellowpages, i felt like i was embarking on a whole new adventure with God. this time i'm a bit deflated...i wonder what He wants me to do at world vision...and is He sure He wants me there? who am i going to talk to about the deeper issues surrounding faith? who am i going to discuss scriptural relevancy with, without offending anybody? what other christians can i say shocking things to, without being judged? where else can i talk on and on about Jesus, without anybody wanting to roll their eyes at me in exasperation? do i have to try to be a superchristian at world vision? will they fire me once they find out i'm anything but? will they label me as a heretic once they hear my personal views on western christianity? [sigh]

oh for heaven's sake, who the hell cares. it's a job.